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Post by ADH7901 on Oct 14, 2003 9:19:27 GMT -5
My group of friends are falling apart...everyone is fighting and getting mad at each other...and I'm expected to be the peacemaker as usual...no, I can't be mad at anyone myself, and my friends want me to pick sides...and everything is falling apart...its so frustrating...some of them are being so dumb...i just want to...i dunno anymore...and...ugh...
also, i wrote the essay for comp. about being gay and christian and we got randomly assigned people to read our essays...and this one girl read mine (this was on friday) and then on monday at the end of class said to me "i thought you should read this?" and im like "what is it?" and shes like "you know, your essay" then walked off...and it was this pamphlet about why homosexuality is a sin! i'm thinking "did you even READ my essay?? you missed the point completely, or are to ignorant to see thru your blindness"..its like she didnt even give what i had to say in my essay any thought whatsoever...the nerve of her! how rude can you be, seriously? does she not have any consideration for me whatsoever? and wouldnt she realize after reading my essay that ive read pamphlets like that before? writing like that are among the things that caused me to believe God hated me and develop OCD/depression...does she want me to go back to that? ( i dont think i will im just saying...)
ugh...and everything is just going bad and i wanted to cry so bad last night i was talking to annsmamma but i couldnt even put into words how i felt...and i still cant...i want to cry but cant...and the things i talked above arent all...i have midterm tests this week and i dont think im going to do very good...im all stressed out...and everything just seems to be going wrong...im constantly stressing and not getting enough sleep...i feel sick from stress and lack of sleep...like sick to my stomach...i'm sorry for complaining...i feel like i'm whining...but this is how i feel...
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Post by LuvLiyah4life on Oct 14, 2003 9:29:52 GMT -5
aaaaw..baby... I'm so sorry... I don't think there is anything I can say to fix things, but remember you have a whole group of ppl here who loves you..
A song, from me to you.. just because I love you so much...
Angel of mine
Oh when I first saw ya, I already knew
There was something inside of you
Something I thought I'd never find
Angel of Mine
I look at you, looking at me
Now I know why they say the best things are free
Gonna love you till the end of time
Angel of Mine
What you mean to me you'll never know
Deep inside I need to show
You came into my life sent from above
Never did I dream such a perfect love
And I'll adore you till the end of time
Angel of Mine
ooh, angel, yeah mmm
Nothing means more to me the more we share
The world in this whole world can ever compare
Last night awake your moves are still on my mind
Angel, angel of Mine
What you mean to me you'll never know
Deep inside I need to show
You came into my life sent from above
Never did I dream such a perfect love
And I'll adore you till the end of time
Angel of Mine (of mine)
ooh, angel of, angel (angel)
I never knew I could feel each moment, as everyone new
Every breath I take, or vow that I make
I wanna share it with you
When I first saw ya I already knew
There was something inside of you
Something I thought I'd never find
Angel of Mine
You came into my life, sent from above
(up above baby baby baby)
Never did I dream of such perfect love (a perfect love)
And I'll adore you till the end of time
Angel of Mine
What you mean to me you'll never know
Deep inside, I need to show
I look at you, looking at me
Now I know why they say the best things are free
Gonna love you till the end of time
Angel of Mine..
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Post by ADH7901 on Oct 14, 2003 9:32:12 GMT -5
awww anny....thats so sweet of you *breaks down* thanks so much anny, youre so special...i love you so much...
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Post by LuvLiyah4life on Oct 14, 2003 9:34:38 GMT -5
aaaaw.. hun.. come here.. *open my arms and hugs you* you are special too you know... very special... I love you so much... sooo much...
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Post by ADH7901 on Oct 14, 2003 10:05:31 GMT -5
aaaaw.. hun.. come here.. *open my arms and hugs you* you are special too you know... very special... I love you so much... sooo much... I love you too...endlessly... I wish everyone was as nice as you. Some people are such jerks!   |
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Post by LuvLiyah4life on Oct 14, 2003 10:07:04 GMT -5
aaaaw... *kiss*
yeah, I wish everyone was nice too...
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Post by ADH7901 on Oct 14, 2003 10:09:11 GMT -5
aaaaw... *kiss* yeah, I wish everyone was nice too... *hugs* i gotta go...class..love you...bye... |
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Post by LuvLiyah4life on Oct 14, 2003 10:11:51 GMT -5
*hugs* i gotta go...class..love you...bye... I love you too.. talk to you later.. |
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Post by ADH7901 on Oct 14, 2003 12:34:39 GMT -5
I love you too.. talk to you later.. bye... |
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Post by Ma on Oct 14, 2003 13:10:09 GMT -5
:'(Awwww chris ****opens arms for you to come in for a hug***sorry your day didn't go so well, remember Chris I am hear for you if u ever need me ok, have a good day baby and take care..... AnnsMamma 
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Post by ADH7901 on Oct 14, 2003 13:11:23 GMT -5
:'(Awwww chris ****opens arms for you to come in for a hug***sorry your day didn't go so well, remember Chris I am hear for you if u ever need me ok, have a good day baby and take care..... AnnsMamma Thanks hun....*basks in warmth of hug* you and everyone else here are so good to me...thanks... |
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Post by LuvLiyah4life on Oct 14, 2003 13:46:47 GMT -5
we love you, Chris...
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Post by Krissy2003 on Oct 14, 2003 14:00:32 GMT -5
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Post by EternalFlame7901 on Oct 14, 2003 15:51:08 GMT -5
Awwww, Chris *big hug*! I know that I can never relate to your situation completely, because no one can throroughly understand what someone else is going through, but I know what it is to feel like the world is just falling apart around you... like everything's a huge mess, and you can't see straight... like you're being hurled from one extreme to the next without any time to catch your breath. I also know what it feels like to wonder what the hell you did to deserve such harsh treatment and ignorance because of something you can't help... and I can't make that go away for you. I can't even make it go away for myself, but what I can do is let you know that I am here to listen. I love you Chris. You're strong, babes. One day things will be better... for all of us. I know it...  |
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Post by ADH7901 on Oct 14, 2003 17:22:57 GMT -5
Awwww, Chris *big hug*! I know that I can never relate to your situation completely, because no one can throroughly understand what someone else is going through, but I know what it is to feel like the world is just falling apart around you... like everything's a huge mess, and you can't see straight... like you're being hurled from one extreme to the next without any time to catch your breath. I also know what it feels like to wonder what the hell you did to deserve such harsh treatment and ignorance because of something you can't help... and I can't make that go away for you. I can't even make it go away for myself, but what I can do is let you know that I am here to listen. I love you Chris. You're strong, babes. One day things will be better... for all of us. I know it... awwww you have no idea what your words have done for me....Amanda, Krissy, AnnsMamma, Annlen....you guys are all so sweet. coming here cheers me up so much, you have no idea! Amanda - We have so much in common you know, situation-wise? Although our situations are completely different, we have both been treated like dirt for reasons out of our control. I hope things get better for you...not one day but NOW...you totally deserve so much more than you have right now...you are so wise beyond your years I have no idea how to even comprehend it sometimes...I often feel like I'm talking with someone much much older than me...and the strange thing is you are younger than I! You are so amazing...I don't know what I would do without you! Before I met you, before I met any of you, I was so much worse off than I am now. Anny...you are the sweetest girl! You always know how to cheer me up...you are amazingly sweet! And Krissy...you are also so sweet! And you make me laugh so much too...you deserve the award I won much more than I do...and AnnsMamma...you are so supportive and loving...no wonder Ann wants you as her mother....I think we all do! And to all others who haven't responded, you're amazing too! I love you all so much! We are so lucky to have all found each other...and I above all am so blessed to be surrounded by such amazing people! I love you all so much it hurts! |
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